Transition

Transition is a funny thing.  It can be joyful and frightful all at the same time.  Some days you love it and on other days, you may find yourself in a pool of tears.  For those of us who like consistency, it can be downright unnerving and challenge you to the core.  This is where I find myself. 

Transition has brought me to the place of asking the question, “Who and what do I lean on when the boat is rocking uncontrollably?”  My answers have ranged from myself, food, facebook, and my spouse, to organizing, routine, and at times…God.  Why is it that the one person I know will help me through this (God) is the same one I reject time and time again?  Because I am human.

My impatience to correct all my humanness drives my anxiety higher during these moments.  Why can’t I just get this part of my life correct? Well, if it was humanly possible to “fix” everything in our own lives, then wouldn’t we be able to somehow, eventually, earn our salvation?  And when would we ever need to rely on the “community” of believers?

So, reluctantly, I admit to God, again, that I have screwed up.  The reins have somehow made it back into my hands, and I want to relinquish them, again.  Thankfully He loves us and is always there waiting, each and every time.

I am a work in progress.  We are all works in progress.  Let’s enjoy the process, while we can, and not continually be anxiously awaiting the end result.  It will come soon enough.

In the meantime, as you are in transition, allow God to use it to bring things to the surface that He would like to restore, heal, or even remove from you.  Listen to Him.  He will let you know what and where He would like to work, in your life.  And as He works, you learn to let go of the control sooner, run to Him faster, and transition becomes less frightening and more of a time to see God work in our lives.